It's been too long....

Personality differences
Handwriting differences
Need to meet needs
Mothering ingrained
Need for silence
Need for non-boredom
Need for unviolent
in your face
right now
Raw hunger
Or just personality
Or just tired of mothering this one
Cycle it
Around
Again
Cycle
it
Around
Again

Real life things like bills and a roof and food
Require I not play work
Perfect control and behavior
In one corner of my life

Rebellion to what? I'm not sure but
Lest the bars lock me
I rattle my cage
In another corner of my life

Roulette now with those I love and who love me
What need is this that feeds
On the status quo
In this corner of my life

Raw pain smothered in actions so I don't feel
Trapped and cornered with
Knots that burst into flame
In what corner of my life

A curse to those who love me
I know so I protect myself
But should they love me anyway

A curse to those who love me
I know so I torture them
Because they love me anyway

Why? Because I can meet needs without strings
for him and for me
Strings of love of expectation of commitment
I can see his smile feel his responce and
touch it feel it embrace it
Because we both know our response is
without strings
for him and for me